Some years ago I was going through a number of major personal changes when I had a panic attack followed by the feeling that the sky was falling in! No amount of logic could shift this feeling. I was in huge distress, beside myself with worry and searching for a reason for it.
After a month of feeling this way my system began to calm but depression was what settled. It felt like I was in a deep well and from the moment I woke in the morning I had to work constantly to get out of it. If I stayed at the bottom their was no point to anything. I felt useless and worthless though I knew I was not. This was very much a 'felt sense' thing and focusing my attention on the feeling did not change it - it did not go away. So I had to focus on coming up the well.
The information and guidance on the Mental Health Foundation website helped me IMMENSELY. To know that I was not alone in feeling this way, to know that it could change.
At the bottom of the well I did a lot of self-talk and chuckled to myself when I realised that my mantra had become "and this too shall pass". I exercised, made myself eat, spent time with friends though I was probably lousy company. It all helped.
It was not a quick process. Sometimes I still feel the sides of that well....
I am raising money for the Mental Health Foundation as part of my participation in the Mount Kilimanjaro Challenge. I will be doing this challenge with friends https://kilimanjaro-for-mental-health.everydayhero.com/nz/tauranga-social-climbers (this is our group fund-raising page) but it is also a very personal challenge for me.
I will be fundraising my little butt off (yes, I regained a few pounds) but I would really appreciate your help.
Please support the work the Mental Health Foundation do to help the 1 in 5 New Zealanders who experience a mental health problem each year, by giving whatever you can using the ‘Give Now’ button. Please spread the word by sharing my page with your friends as mental health issues can touch all our lives. Thanks for helping all Kiwi’s flourish!